I have that small pit in my belly today. He shows up prior to most of my mountain excursions. I see him right before a tattoo session, too. He balances the excitement of the climb tomorrow (and the joy of the art inking my skin). I have no reason to be edgy. I know what I'm doing. I trust my team mates. The objective is well within our capabilities. I still feel this "what if?" in my nerves. I feel the "what am I doing?" hanging in the air.
It's a good feeling. It's my double check. It's my safety catch.
All Grown Up
4 years ago